I have a dark secret which brings me great shame. OK, maybe it's not a very big secret, as I tell a lot of people about it. And maybe 'shame' is too strong a word. It brings me something more like regret or a little twinge of sadness. Well, maybe more like a fair amount of sadness when thought of...
I am a college drop out.
That's right I never finished getting a degree. I really, really loved going to college and even enjoyed taking classes. B ut I am not going to lie, even when I was in college, I was somewhat wishy-washy and directionless. I liked lots of stuff and had a hard time really specializing in anything (too bad I didn't live back in the days when this was referred to as being a Renaissance (wo)Man instead of just being kind of a loser.)
I couldn't decided what I wanted to BE when I grew up.
And I still haven't quite figured it out.
I serve in the Young Women's program now and today we had our monthly joint meeting with the boys where a teacher comes in and talks to all of us about the value of education. And specifically today, all of the kids filled out a questionnaire about what we might like or dislike in a job. Apparently our teacher will take these papers home, enter them into some sort of magic vocation selecting computer program and it will unlock the secret to the future happiness of the quiz takers. Or it will at least spit out a few ideas of jobs you might like.
Many of the things I marked 'Like' were things that I will never do as a job--like professional singer or piloting a boat on a river (he never said you had to be capable of doing the job, you just had to like the idea of doing it-although I did actually have a job for a summer where I piloted a boat down a river...). Going by what I liked, it seems like I should have worked in the entertainment industry, as I would really 'Like' to write a song or be in a jazz band. In filling out the questionnaire, I also realized that I am kind of a jerk, as I marked 'Dislike' on most things pertaining to caring for old people, handicapped people, and small children. I think there was a time in my college years when I would have thought I'd 'Like' working with all of those people, but my old, jaded self has realized I am not nearly as patient as the people who excel in those fields.
John and I try to talk a lot about the importance of a good education to our kids and I am hoping they will not quit like I did. Gabe plans to own a gravel pit. Seth says he'd like to be a brain surgeon or a lawyer. Elise comes up with a new business plan about once a week for resturaunts, child care centers, retail stores, you name it (she plans to start small with one location then replicate it in other places)! Jackson wants to be a famous singer, a gravel pit worker, or a superhero. Jebb wants to be a policeman or a race car driver. I just want them all to be hard working and feel a sense of success in whatever they choose to do. Of course I hope the biggest thing they will want to do is have a family. I know from first hand experience that families happen to ROCK! :) But I do hope that they have a little more direction at a younger age professionally speaking. ;) And I hope that they all graduate from college because then not only will they have the tools and education to build a better life, but I will also be able to live vicariously through them thereby hiding my own guilt and shame at being a drop out.
It was interesting timing for me on taking the little quiz because I have actually recently signed up for an online college class from BYU. I am not planning to graduate any time soon, but I figure it can't hurt. And so far, I really 'Like' it.