I'm having a little mini meltdown. I am frustrated with this whole pneumonia thing. I went for my follow-up X-ray today and it appears I still have the P word-the silent P word. What kind of dumb sickness starts with a silent P by the way?! My Doctor's Associate's Nurse (get that? I haven't been able to see my own Dr, just his associate, and it was Her Nurse that called me...) called to let me know the news. She said I am to take ANOTHER round of antibiotics (my 4th).
I was told originally that I had bacterial and viral P. When I took my last round of antibiotics, my fever went away and I was able to function (though at a largely diminished capacity). I assume this is because the antibiotics took care of whatever bacterial infection I had. So when I asked the nurse if I had viral P still, she said she didn't know. I asked if I did have viral P, would antibiotics even matter? She didn't know. Ugg. I am just frustrated that the solution to everything is antibiotics even if the logic isn't there. I am sure I am missing something and this is going to make a difference, but I wish someone could tell me what that missing knowledge is. I have written about my hesitance to take drugs as even antibiotics do not set well with me.
And I am learning first hand how important active parenting is to the peace in the home. When kids are left to their own devices they tend to be really messy and fight a lot. But I am still so tired-I just let them have free reign. I miss my hubby. I miss Gabe (as the oldest, he is a lot of help). I am flippin' GRUMPY and I am sick of hanging out with my unfun self. I am sick of being exhausted after a simple task like watering my flowers. It's so dumb! I want to drive to Utah, but have Sunday stuff-not to mention the fact that I haven't summoned up the energy to pack.
So ya-there's my rant. I think I am just going to turn on the TV and let everyone chill for a while. I'll get it together...just had to vent!